Just Breathe...

There comes a time when one must step back and just... breathe. Over the course of the past few months, things have come in such an overwhelming flow of "everythingness" that I haven't been able to organize my thoughts, my mind. I have given birth to a baby boy who was born a little too early (bless his soul he's my little porker now...), had MASSIVE problems with the landlord, moved to another province and all the little things in between that just seem so minuscule that it doesn't even matter. The fact is, I'm alive. Still freakin' alive. So here are my thoughts, rolled into one little song. Maybe I'll add the video later, maybe I won't. Doesn't really matter. I'm just still breathing, still alive...







Life just took over

A blur that happened too fast

A moment my breath was gone

Unwinding the road at last

To ease the unsettling thoughts

Of restraining duress

I long for a peace of mind

A moment to caress

In everything that's happened

I can't begin to explain

Just how I'll see that stupid rainbow

Right after all the rain

I may still just be

In the middle of the storm

Trying to find the medium

Trying to fit the norm

With every breath I can breathe

A little light will flicker

Hope gets a little stronger

Pain gets a little sicker

Praying to God every night

Wishing for peace and hope

Just another little breath

Just so I can cope



To be able to breathe

Just for that moment

Just to be able to breathe

No longer dormant

To be able to breathe

Just to be able to breathe

I'll just wait for that moment in time

When I'll be able to breathe





I'm sorry if this blog doesn't make any sense. I never expected it to. It's just my thoughts poured down in broken moments between wiping tears that don't exist.



Mel.